My Overly Dramatic Notice

I’ve been meaning to write this post all week, but that just goes to show you how hectic my life has been.  I realized last week that I needed to take some time off and I was going to mention it, but it hasn’t quite happened yet.

So, here I am, letting you know (even though it’s already technically happened) that I’m going to have to take a break for a while.  I’m still going to post Song Lyric Sunday each week, but everything else is on hold for now.

We are trying to sell our house and looking for a new one and I honestly had no idea it could be this time consuming, stressful and pretty much all-consuming in every way possible.  Add to that the fact that my daughter is in town and the day job is freaking crazy, and it just means that when I get home, I vegetate.  I’m definitely not motivated to blog.

I’m hoping to be back in a few weeks to a more full schedule, but for now, I hope you continue to enjoy Song Lyric Sunday.  Remember that I’m thinking of you and missing all of you and the wonderful presence you’ve been in my life.

(It sounds like I’m actually saying goodbye, which I’m not.)

(I’m so dramatic)

(I think I spent a little too much time with my daughter today… if that can even happen…)

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JustJoJan Day 19 – Small Climate Changes and Headaches

In the past six months, I have come to dread small climate changes. Do you know how it can be say 20 degrees but when a storm is rolling in it somehow rises to around 40 just before the storm hits? Those are the changes I’m talking about that bring on a dreaded headache.

For whatever reason (actually it was entirely stress related) I started getting headaches during the summer last year. When they first started, it was pretty constant. During the month of August, I had a headache every single day for the entire month. I saw a doctor, took meds, but really, it took changing some things in my life to get them to at least only come a few times a month.

Even though I made the changes and lessened the stress in my life, it’s like my body decided that it was used to having headaches so it kept the headaches, but I now have relief for days at a time.

I was talking to my sister, who suffers from headaches too, and she told me about the weather thing. I don’t know if I was just ready to blame it on something other than stress, but it happens without fail now.

Today is the perfect example. It wasn’t that stressful of a day and yet around 4:00 pm I started getting a headache. The first thing I did was look at the weather app on my phone – 80% chance of snow starting at 6:00 pm tonight. I enjoy snow, especially when I can stay home and cuddle in a nice warm blanket. What I really dislike is the weird pressure thing that happens before the storm hits.

I’m sure there is some scientific terminology to explain all this. The only thing I can say is that I’m pretty miserable when it happens.

Headaches are just really awful.

Just Jot It January is hosted by Lind G. Hill. Today’s prompt, climate, was brought to us by Joanne at Top of JC’s Mind.


Let’s Make Paper Chains

The office was pretty quiet during the holidays. They used to shut down for two weeks but not this year. Not only are they closing the office down, they also switched systems to integrate with the parent company so we are training, closing out one system, transferring data to a new system and trying not to go completely insane while we’re at it.

There were about four of us sitting around one afternoon bitching about the situation when my boss said, “Only 25 more days and then it won’t be our problem.” We all laughed, but I asked, “Is it really 25 more days? Does anyone know for sure?” We all made a show of looking at our calendars, but I don’t think any of us really wanted to know for sure. Maybe, in that moment, it would have made it all too real, and there was also the possibility that it was actually more than 25 days.

Eventually, we all got back to work. About an hour later, my boss came out of her office with a huge smile, proudly holding up a paper chain. A paper chain! I can’t remember the last time I even thought about making one of those. We, of course, all had to have one so we spent the next thirty minutes or so writing dates on pieces of paper, folding them into circles and either taping or stapling them together. I think it ended up being more like 28 days (only counting working days) but within an hour, we all had paper chains stuck to our cubicles or office walls.

I’m pretty sure it’s the highlight of everyone’s day right now; tearing off one of those pieces of paper to signify one day closer to walking out the door and never looking back. I think we are all eager to move on to different things, perhaps better things.

But it got me to thinking tonight about how stressful situations can either lead us to pull our hair out and have a nervous breakdown, or we can let it all go and do something completely child-like. There is something so liberating about letting all the guards down and saying, “What the hell, I’m going to make a paper chain; I’m going to color in a coloring book with crayons; I’m going to eat ice cream for dinner; I’m going to make a snow angel and then I’m going to build a snowman, and after that, I’m going to drink hot chocolate with marshmallows in it and make snowflakes out of paper and hang them in the window.”

Here’s hoping we can all find more moments like these in our lives that aren’t stress-induced. Who cares what anyone thinks? Do something that makes you laugh out loud and just be happy. Life’s too short to spend it hurrying from one stressful situation to the next.

This post is part of Just Jot It January hosted by Linda G Hill.

A Bit Overwhelmed, But…

To say I’m a little bit overwhelmed would probably be putting it mildly.  It’s been a week, to say the least.  I have this habit of overwhelming myself with “things” and then becoming so overwhelmed I am unable to keep it up.  I did it when I announced I was going to train for a half marathon then realized about three weeks in it just wasn’t happening and continuing to beat myself up about not doing it was counter-productive.

I found out a month ago that they are closing my office down and moving it to Detroit.  We knew it was coming, but I think we all thought it would be a year or more before it actually happened.  There wasn’t a definite time-line given when it was announced a month ago, but they said we would have more information in a month.  We were given our severance package and time-line on Thursday, but it was different for everyone.  I had a good friend in the office who was told her last day was yesterday.  I, at least, have until January 31st.  But honestly, I’m not sure it’s worth the dread I feel every day I wake up and go to work.  And trying to plan a new job to start exactly February 1st is going to be a pain.

I’ve had a few interviews in the past few weeks, which is a process that I can only tell you is stressful and can be demoralizing at times.  I don’t think anyone likes looking for a job and I am here to tell you that I, personally, hate it!  Just finding out you didn’t get that job you really wanted simply because the other person was an internal referral (I guess that’s more information than most people get, but still…) is disheartening.  It’s also depressing to submit five applications/resumes and not hear back on a single one!

I’ve been battling something this last week, health-wise as well, but I honestly think that is entirely stress-related because it keeps changing.  Wednesday, I felt like I had a full-blown cold, but today my stomach hurts and I’m weak and dizzy.  All the not feeling well has led to no exercise, yes I’m admitting it, absolutely no exercise for going on two weeks now.  I knew exercising was helping my state of mind, but I’m not sure I really appreciated everything it was doing for me.  Now, I just look out the window and dream of running but know if I tried in my state it wouldn’t go over so well.

I headed up to bed last night at 9pm.  I don’t remember the last time I went to bed that early.  I had my doubts that I would actually sleep, but I passed out and slept until 8 this morning.  Whenever I sleep like that, I know I’m battling something.  I just feel like I’m getting hit on multiple levels right now and it’s hard for me to just take it in stride and be at peace.   Not only am I not exercising, I’m in the middle of looking for a new job, but this girl decided that would also be the best time to write a book.  I actually did better than I thought I would the first part of the week and I have more words than I ever have before, but I’m not sure I’m doing myself a favor forcing myself to write like this.  But there is also that other part of my brain that says I’m just making excuses and, of course I should write no matter what because no words means no book means… well, I could go on, but I’m sure you’ve told yourself the same things as well and not only is it counter-productive, it actually hurts.  (Yes, I manage to hurt my own feelings sometimes)

I really didn’t mean to use this post to bitch about my life and the sad state of affairs of my emotional state.  I really am just a bit overwhelmed and just a bit depressed, but I believe everything is okay… or at least, that’s my way of trying to make myself feel better.  Everything is okay just the way it is.  Just accept what is and let it be.  If only that was as easy as it sounds.

Here’s hoping you are all having a lovely Saturday and I appreciate you tuning in even though this is a bitch-fest of a post.  I’m thinking it helped to get it all out and it feels good to watch my fingers fly across the keys, but I’m sure it wasn’t a fun read.  This is what you get with SoCS… just random ramblings about whatever is happening right now.  Which isn’t always interesting to the reader but is kind-of making me laugh so I guess it served a useful purpose today.  I needed to laugh.

This was written for Stream of Consciousness Saturday hosted by Linda G Hill.  This week we were prompted with: bat, bet, bit, bot, but.