I feel like I’ve spent a lot of this year so far complaining, which isn’t so much fun for you guys to read, I’m guessing. I also had a pretty rough day yesterday, but I honestly couldn’t even tell you why. There really wasn’t a reason for it, other than it was a Monday and I just wasn’t thinking clearly.
I’m feeling much better today, though.
Adelle asked me to send her a care package (which included an extra cell phone because she’s pretty awful to her phones and she can’t upgrade until May). I was planning to get everything at lunch and then stop at the post office after work. I ended up not being able to get everything at lunch because I didn’t realize I still couldn’t walk more than a block or so without hurting. (When is this going to be healed? Sheesh!)
So, I was thinking about the fact that I was hurting and before I left work I decided to go straight home and finish it tomorrow. However, as I was leaving the parking lot, I decided what the hell. I turned the other way and stopped at the grocery store. I was looking for some very specific things in a store I wasn’t used to, so I ended up walking around the store longer than I wanted. Then, when I finally checked out and was on my way to the car, I realized I’d forgotten something that was on the other side of the store.
I decided right then that I was for sure going to wait until tomorrow to send the package, even if it meant a little longer lunch standing in a line at the post office. But wouldn’t you know it… I found a Walgreens on my way home (a much smaller store) and ran in to get the last thing. I also realized that the post office near my house was open later, and I still had another 25 minutes. I ended up making it in time and getting her package sent off.
For all the negative thinking I did throughout the day, I was still able to get done exactly what I wanted to and now I’m home, sitting in front of my computer and relaxing. I’m thinking I could have saved myself a whole hell of a lot of emotional turmoil though (because, strangely I get all emotional when things don’t go exactly as I want them to) if I had just stayed positive the whole time.
I guess the moral here is that complaining seems to add to your burden. It is much better to approach things with gratitude and a positive spirit, if for nothing else than to ease the stress your own thoughts can cause.