Song Lyric Sunday – Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson

The day just keeps getting later and later and I’m running out of time to post my own response to the SLS theme. I don’t have any reason for it and I know I’ll beat myself up for it if I don’t, so here I am. First, though, I had to fix the laptop. I thought it would fix itself, but I kept getting this weird starting screen. Thanks to my son for pulling up some stuff on Google. I’ve never been one to shy away from entering weird commands on a computer, so I went for it. I’m just hoping that one day I don’t accidentally do something truly horrifying to the system.

Anyway, I haven’t taken a look at all the entries today, so this one could be a duplicate, but it is speaking to me today. It is also telling the story of why I picked the theme this week. I’m feeling pretty broken, but for some reason, I just keep going. Life is beautiful, but pain is truly starting to take its toll on me. I am trying not to let it break me, but I’m feeling the effects. Hope is all I have; hope that someday I will find the source of the pain and be able to fix it. Or, at least, find a better way to live each day with perhaps less pain.

This song makes me feel hopeful. I’m sure you’ve heard it before, but I hope you enjoy it again today.

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I’d just stare out my window
Dreamin’ of what could be
And if I’d end up happy
I would pray
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray
I could breakaway
I’ll spread my wings, and I’ll learn how to fly
I’ll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I’ll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget all the ones that I love
I’ll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Want to feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jet plane
Faraway
And breakaway
I’ll spread my wings, and I’ll learn how to fly
I’ll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I’ll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won’t forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging ’round revolvin’ doors
Maybe I don’t know where they take me
But gotta keep movin’ on
Movin’ on
Fly away
Breakaway
I’ll spread my wings, and I’ll learn how to fly
Though it’s not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Breakaway
Breakaway
Songwriters: Avril Ramona Lavigne / Bridget Louise Benenate / Matthew Gerrard
Breakaway lyrics © Warner/Chappell Music, Inc, Universal Music Publishing Group, BMG Rights Management

The Song Lyric Sunday theme for this week was break.  Please feel free to click the link, read the rules and post one of your own.

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Song Lyric Sunday – Let’s Hurt Tonight by One Republic

I know you all know this, but relationships are just hard.  I’ve always told myself that love is worth it, though.  Sometimes, we have to accept that there will be pain in order to move to the next step.

I’ve always believed that just talking it through will solve most any problem in a relationship, but that isn’t always true.  While I agree with the sentiment behind this song, I also realize it isn’t always possible to lock the door and hash it out until there’s a resolution.

I was a huge fan of One Republic when they first came out, but I saw them perform live on TV and was seriously disappointed.  Perhaps that’s changed and they’ve grown, but regardless, I found this song captivating.

Also, I heard it for the first time while watching the movie Collateral Beauty.  If you haven’t seen it, I highly recommend it.  It’s a heart breaker, but the message is simply beautiful.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy the beauty of the song and remember to hold on to love, even through the pain.

Le’ts Hurt Tonight by One Republic
Written by Ryan Tedder and Noel Zancanella
Lyrics found at AZ Lyrics

When, when we came home
Worn to the bones
I told myself, “This could get rough.”

And when, when I was off,
Which happened a lot
You came to me and said, “That’s enough.”

Oh, I know that this love is pain
But we can’t cut it from out these veins,
No

So I’ll get the lights and you lock the doors
We ain’t leaving this room ’til we both feel more
Don’t walk away, don’t roll your eyes
They say love is pain.
Well, darling, let’s hurt tonight

When, when you came home
Worn to the bones
I told myself, “This could be rough.”

Oh, I know you feel insane
Tell me something that I can explain,
Oh

I’ll get the lights and you lock the doors
Tell me all of the things that you couldn’t before
Don’t walk away, don’t roll your eyes
They say love is pain.
Well, darling, let’s hurt tonight
If this love is pain then, darling, let’s hurt, oh, tonight

So you get the lights and I’ll lock the doors
Let’s say all of the things that we couldn’t before
Won’t walk away, won’t roll my eyes
They say love is pain.
Well, darling, let’s hurt tonight
If this love is pain, then, honey, let’s love tonight


The Song Lyric Sunday theme for this week was to post a song about pain.  Please feel free to click the link, read the rules and post one of your own.

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Mindful Monday – Feeling Depleted

I honestly had no idea what to write, but I’d like to thank Bee for her heart-felt post today.  It’s given me the freedom to do almost the same thing.

I’m going through something physically and it’s taken everything out of me today.  I am also still dealing with some emotional turmoil from a few weeks ago.

As Bee said, sometimes living a mindful lifestyle means you face your demons.  But when you do, it can overtake everything else and leave you feeling depleted.

I appreciate my family’s love and support.  They’re helping me to get through this.  Their advice is to be positive and stay in the present moment, and I can tell you that I’m giving it all I have.

I hope you’ll understand. ❤


Bee at A Spirit of Healing is currently hosting Mindful Monday while Colleen at Silver Threading is away.

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Mindful Monday – Celebrating the small victories

I set out on a journey, of sorts, last week but I have to tell you that I went into it with a really bad attitude.  I was depressed and feeling pretty terrible about myself, but I knew I had to do something.  I knew I could do something to change my course and so I did.

I wasn’t perfect last week, but I ate a whole lot less and walked up the stairs most days at work.  On the whole, I considered it a successful first week, but you never really know until you step on a scale.

I didn’t really want to do it (I really dislike stepping on the scale) but I wanted to see if all my efforts had any effect whatsoever.  And you know what?  They did.  I lost about 4 pounds and I am feeling amazing.  I think having confirmation of your work helps keep you going and I’m definitely going to keep going.

The strangest thing that happened was feeling my stomach react to food when it was almost surely empty.  I didn’t starve myself, if that’s what you’re thinking, but I did eat a lot less.  I can only think that I used to eat so much, that foods which should have made me sick, only troubled me a little bit because there was food already in there soaking up the new stuff.  I’m not sure if that makes any sense…

Anyway, this whole journey is teaching me the foods that my body likes and the foods that I know are really terrible for me.  Not only am I just eating until I am full (which takes awareness and eating much slower), I am also going to stop eating the foods that make me sick, no matter how much I love the taste of them.  It isn’t worth putting something in my body that makes me feel like crap for hours afterwards.

So there you have it – a small success story and my motivation to keep going.  Thank you to all who commented last week.  Your words helped get me through those first few days.

I hope your mindful journey is going well and you are having some successes you can celebrate!


Bee at A Spirit of Healing is currently hosting Mindful Monday while Colleen at Silver Threading is away.

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Mindful Monday – Getting my butt in gear

Do you ever feel like your body has betrayed you?  I’m feeling that way a lot lately… but even as I think that thought, I realize I’m whining when there are people who have serious medical issues that keep them from doing things they love or living the kind of life they would have wanted.  If I put it in that context, I really don’t have any excuses.

I finally realized just a few minutes ago that the reason I’ve gained so much weight in the past two years is probably because I built up a ton of muscle and then just stopped exercising.  Muscle turns to fat, or at least, I believe it does.  I’ve stopped a pretty hefty exercise routine twice now and both times, I gained weight.  I think my body is just sick of my waffling… I know I am.

April 23rd was the last day I ran and I did a 5K with my son.  However, my hip hurt so bad by the time I finished, that I actually limped across the finish line.  I decided it wasn’t worth it if I was going to be in constant pain.  So, I got depressed and quit doing all exercise.  I saw a doctor, who referred me to physical therapy.  (Between you and me, I only went once and cancelled my second appointment.  It hurt!)

I’ve been through the most extreme ups and downs in the past month.  I’m not happy.  I’m gaining weight and I feel like there’s no way out because all the things I love to do are things that hurt my hip.

Saturday, I decided I had to make a change for my own sanity.  I’m not going to jump into any kind of heavy lifting or running/walking.  I’ve decided to take it slow.  My goals this week are to take the stairs at work, walk for a half hour at lunch and eat smaller portions with every meal.  I know that sounds really small, and maybe I’m fooling myself; but I have to start somewhere.  I have to know that I’m taking steps toward a healthier me.

I think I’ve decided running isn’t something my body wants to do, but that could change.  Right now, I’m just going to take it a day at a time and see where it takes me.  I think the one thing I am realizing is that maybe I will just have to deal with pain (unless, of course, I pull my head out and decide to finish physical therapy…)

I stepped on the scale today, just so I could gauge any progress I might have in the weeks to come, and it was humbling.  I knew it, but seeing the reality in those three numbers was depressing.

I know this was more of a “getting my butt in gear” post, rather than an inspiring one, but I think it helped me to write it down.  So, thanks for “listening”.  I hope your mindful living is going well!


Bee at A Spirit of Healing is currently hosting Mindful Monday while Colleen at Silver Threading is away.

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Mindful Monday – Running and Pain

When I was in high school, I remember someone made a suggestion that we run a 5K.  I remember training hard for it and getting so excited for it, but a few months before the planned event, I started to notice pain in my hip.  I stopped running and saw my doctor.  He told me he couldn’t find anything wrong and I eventually forgot about it; but I also stopped running.

I didn’t start running again until my mid-thirties.  The pain started again, but it wasn’t as bad and it wasn’t constant.  I found a few stretches that actually helped it and I was able to manage it.

However, in the last few months, I’ve noticed the pain has actually increased quite a lot.  It isn’t something I can ignore any longer, as much as I might want to.  It hurt pretty bad last week, but I decided to run a 5K with my son last Saturday.  We didn’t run the whole thing, but by the time I crossed the finish line, I was limping and I’ve been in constant pain ever since.

I think it has something to do with a nerve because the pain shoots all the way down into the right side of my calf.  I have a doctor’s appointment and I’ve stopped running and working out all together in an effort to rest and heal.  However, it isn’t just going away like it has in the past.

I honestly don’t know what I’ll do if I can’t run any longer.  It is such a release for me.  I’m sitting here looking out the window as I write this, thinking it is such a perfect day for a run.  I’ve almost talked myself into it a few times today, but I need to find out what is causing the pain and see if I can fix it somehow.  Living with constant pain isn’t something I handle well, if the last week is any indicator.

Until I can figure it out, I’ve decided to focus more on eating healthier.  I’m not great at “dieting” so for me it has to be watching my intake and all the little things I let creep into my diet when I’m not paying enough attention.  I’m hoping I can find a balance that will work and I’m sincerely hoping I can keep running.


Bee at A Spirit of Healing is currently hosting Mindful Monday while Colleen at Silver Threading is away.

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