Mindful Monday – Getting Rid of Clutter

As I’m sitting down to write this, I’m realizing that the amazing thoughts I had yesterday are gone.  I was so excited to write this post because I knew exactly what it was going to be about, but now all my thoughts are jumbled and nothing sounds right.  I probably should have sat down and written it out right then, but I was busy.

So basically, I’m not much of a house cleaner.  I realized yesterday that it isn’t necessarily because I don’t like the act; I actually found it rather enjoyable.  As I got further into it, I realized that I’m so OCD about cleaning that I almost become spastic and I start seeing all the things that need to be done rather than focusing on the task in front of me.  I found it was better if I stayed in one place because if I left to put something away, I found myself stuck in that other room doing something in there.  It can make for a frustrating time of things.

I also had the epiphany yesterday that sometimes you don’t realize how much the clutter and chaos surrounding you is actually affecting you.  I literally removed two things from the kitchen and cleaned it really well and everyone in the house is saying how open it feels.  You’d think I had knocked out a few walls and added ten feet in all directions.

I really don’t like clutter, but we live in such a small space that it’s almost a given.  There just isn’t enough space for everything to have a place of its own.  I realized, though, that I stopped trying at a certain point because it was too hard.  But I’m finding that it makes a huge difference in just how it feels to be here.  Things are brighter and more comfortable.  I don’t even know if I can explain it, actually.

I think it relates to our thoughts in many ways.  Thoughts can clutter our minds so much that it makes it hard to just be in our own skin.  Sometimes it’s good to do a little house cleaning and freshen things up a bit.  Even though the clutter might return, it doesn’t mean you shouldn’t do the work to keep it at bay, or to stop it all together.

So there you have it.  A little house cleaning and I’m feeling fresher and more ready to do even more cleaning because I’ve realized what a difference it makes.

What about you?  Do you find that clutter can affect the mood of your house?

Happy Monday everyone!

Bee at Just Fooling Around With Bee is currently hosting Mindful Monday while Colleen at Silver Threading is away.



Mindful Monday – Saying Goodbye to Morning Coffee

I’ve been having health issues that have caused me to make some changes in my life.  It’s funny how you don’t realize something until it sort of hits you in the face…

My doctor asked me if I drank a lot of caffeine and my immediate response was to say no, but that’s because my morning coffee is such an embedded part of my day, that I completely forget about it as an actual “thing”.  I didn’t think I was drinking a ton of it, though – I usually only had two to three cups in the morning and then switched to water by about mid-day.  It was only recently that I started making an almost daily run at lunch to the gas station for a diet coke, which probably didn’t help anything.  I don’t know, I still don’t think it was a lot.

My body decided it was finished with it, though.  I always say I need to listen to my body and what it’s telling me, but I don’t think I ever expected it to upset me so much.

I miss my morning coffee.  I think it became such an emotional experience for me – having a cup while I sat down at my computer to write; sharing a cup with my sissy as we talked about life and anything really; just the smell of coffee as it was brewing while I made breakfast for the family.  It was a little bright spot of happiness every morning and I pretty much resent not being able to do it now.

Perhaps time will help – it’s only been a few days, after all.

Why is it we create such emotional experiences surrounding food and drink?  I don’t even think we realize we are doing it until we are either forced to stop or decide to stop for one reason or another and then wonder why it’s so hard.

Even now, I’m thinking that maybe I can get to a point where I could have just one cup a day… that wouldn’t be so bad, would it?

I imagine this is what anyone says who is addicted to something in their life.  Maybe it’s a good thing that I’m letting it go, not just for my health, but because I am so obviously addicted to it.

Happy Monday everyone!

Bee at A Spirit of Healing is currently hosting Mindful Monday while Colleen at Silver Threading is away.


Mindful Monday – Blogging and the Day Job

I’ve talked about balance before, but somehow the lack of balance is an ongoing issue in my life.  When I first started this blog,  I was in a job where I worked maybe two hours in a day and the rest of the time I sat at my desk not really working.  Not only that, I didn’t even have to pretend I was working for some strange reason.  So, I spent a lot of time reading blogs and writing.  Even when I wasn’t reading blogs and writing, I had way more time to think about posts (or even stories) I wanted to write.

I don’t know why it’s taken me almost a year to realize I’m just not able to keep up now that my day job has change, but I just can’t.  I’ve noticed it mostly in the types of posts I’m writing now compared to what they were a year ago.  I’ve only written one story this year that was longer than 100 words, and while I started the year off writing a post every day, it’s become more stressful than fun.

Blogging should be fun, I say!  But, I do miss my blog and all of you when I’m not able to post every day.

I’m still trying to figure things out, but I believe it has a lot to do with some of the prompts I follow.  I’m for sure giving up Teaser Tuesday.  I’m not sure I was doing it correctly, but I felt like I had to post a different book every week; however, I can’t even read one book a month at this point.  So, I ended up posting a lot of books I’ve already read, but sadly, that list is not as long as I’d like it to be.

I also felt it necessary (I’m SO OCD!!) to post Friday Fictioneers on Friday and Sunday Photo Fiction on Sunday, but that isn’t happening any more.  What I might try is writing the stories over the weekend and scheduling them on different days during the week.  I’m just hoping that works for those posting the prompt…

Anyway, this pretty much explains some of my absence recently.  I’m just trying to figure it all out, which comes down to balance for me.

I appreciate all of you who have stuck with me and continue to support me.  I love this blogging community!  I’m not going anywhere, but things might change a little bit on This Thing Called Life One Word at a Time… just a little bit, anyway.

Happy Monday everyone!

Bee at A Spirit of Healing is currently hosting Mindful Monday while Colleen at Silver Threading is away.


Mindful Monday – Geeking About Exercise

I picked up my own gauntlet last week and ran full steam ahead.  On Wednesday, I started the workout video I talked about last week, and I did it religiously until Saturday.

I know what you’re thinking… “Did she stop?”

The answer is a resounding “No!”

However, I didn’t do the video on Saturday… I actually did something even more fun and slightly more difficult.

My sister-in-law started a new gym a while ago, but they aren’t a traditional gym; at least, that’s the impression I’m getting.  Anyway, they held a free event on Saturday and, on a whim, I decided to go with her.

What a blast!  It was hard, to be sure, and I should have worn sunscreen, but I will always be down for exercise in the form of games.  I even have pictures for you!


They called it “Geek Games, The Second” and it was all based around Warcraft.  I think it would have been even more fun if we’d had enough people to make two teams, but those of us who did show up, rocked it!

This is our list of exercises:

I shot a bow and arrow, a fun little plastic number shown below, and I even hit the target once!  I wielded a sword (an actual one, not a plastic one) and we shot “spells” at each other in Wizard’s Dodge Ball.  The spells were actually exercises and if you were hit, you had to drop and do the exercise written on the ball.  I ended up getting stuck with 20 mountain climbers at one point.


“The Glyph” was a puzzle and if we hadn’t solved it after five minutes, we had to do five burpees.  I won’t even tell you how many burpees we did because we were given incorrect directions and couldn’t solve the damn thing!  But, I didn’t even care, because who can complain about more exercise?  (Well, I think anyone would, but we gave the game master plenty of crap about it).


The last one was “The Siege”

Basically, three of us had to drag that tire up a huge hill that you can’t see off to the left of the photo.  I honestly didn’t think we’d be able to do it, but we did!

I woke up Saturday morning not feeling very well and I almost texted my partner in crime to let her know I wouldn’t be there.  But, after thinking about it, I decided that I’d rather get out and do something physical than sit around the house all day feeling sorry for myself.  I’m so happy I went, even if I was sore as hell on Saturday and Sunday.


It was hard to get up this morning and go back to my workout video, but I did it!  I’m well on my way to making a habit and getting exercise back into my life, and Saturday serves as a great remember that exercise is hard, but it sure can be fun!

Bee at A Spirit of Healing is currently hosting Mindful Monday while Colleen at Silver Threading is away.


Mindful Monday – A Long Lost Friend

I stepped back into blogging on Saturday and I’ve been feeling much better about life.  I also feel like I want to take that next step to a healthier me.  It’s been a rough few months of pain, extreme emotion and trying to find my place in my own life, but I realized a while ago that if I was going to make any significant changes, I needed to be coming from a better place.

I feel like I’ve finally reached that place.  Maybe I won’t allow myself to run anymore, but there are things I can do, I just haven’t wanted to do those things because, I don’t know… I was grieving?  But, now that I’ve basically pulled my head out, I’m realizing that I may still be able to run, I just need to work my body up to it and do the things that will stretch those muscles and make it easier to run.

I don’t need a physical therapist to show me how to exercise… maybe it would help, but I spent an entire summer running more than I ever have with no pain whatsoever.  I think the reason I was able to do that, though, was because I was also doing cross-training.  I believe there were things in those exercises that worked the muscles I need for running.

So, I’ve decided to force myself back to cross-training.  I’m giving up the gym and my running shoes and I’ve decided to put in a DVD!  My sister gave me a DVD workout series forever ago and I did it for maybe a minute, but then I stopped because… well, I liked running way more.  I’m realizing, though, that I like a more toned, thinner, healthier me, too, so I need to do whatever it takes.

Will it be hard?  Absolutely!  Am I ready to do it?  Yes I am.

I’m giving up 45 minutes of laying in bed every morning, but I’m committing to a full 4 months of this video.  I’m excited to see the results, not just at the end, but along the way.  I miss that high you get when the endorphins are pumping, and I’m looking forward to it.  It’s like I rediscovered a long lost friend and I can’t wait to catch up!

How about you?  How are your goals going?

Bee at A Spirit of Healing is currently hosting Mindful Monday while Colleen at Silver Threading is away.


Mindful Monday – Feeling Depleted

I honestly had no idea what to write, but I’d like to thank Bee for her heart-felt post today.  It’s given me the freedom to do almost the same thing.

I’m going through something physically and it’s taken everything out of me today.  I am also still dealing with some emotional turmoil from a few weeks ago.

As Bee said, sometimes living a mindful lifestyle means you face your demons.  But when you do, it can overtake everything else and leave you feeling depleted.

I appreciate my family’s love and support.  They’re helping me to get through this.  Their advice is to be positive and stay in the present moment, and I can tell you that I’m giving it all I have.

I hope you’ll understand. ❤

Bee at A Spirit of Healing is currently hosting Mindful Monday while Colleen at Silver Threading is away.


Mindful Monday – Positive Self-Talk and Acceptance

I’m constantly amazed at the power of the human mind; however, I’m thinking of it more in terms of derailment rather than it’s ability to heal and move on.   I spent the entire weekend wanting to escape, and I believe I succeeded rather well.  Did it serve a purpose?  Well, yes, in the short term.  Did it help?  Not at all.  In fact, I’ve set myself back almost an entire week because my escape choices didn’t lend themselves very well to dieting.

I remember telling myself at one point in my life, probably more than once, that dieting is terrible and I sincerely hoped I would never find myself in a position to have to do it again.

I’ve been thinking though… is it really necessary?  It’s so stressful and I spend more time being negative about the way I look, what I’m eating and how I’m feeling than I do being positive about those things, even though I know in my heart that positivity is much better for making any sort of meaningful changes.

So, as of right this moment, I am no longer “dieting”!  I’m going to accept myself for what I am right this moment.  Am I going to continue to eat less portions?  Absolutely!  Am I going to keep climbing the stairs every morning at work and adding exercise back into my lifestyle?  Yes I am.

What I’m no longer going to do is look at myself in the mirror every day and call myself names or tell myself I’m huge or any of the other terrible things I say to myself.  I’m okay just as I am and it’s time I start loving myself again.

When my fiance says negative things about himself, I can honestly tell him that I love him no matter what and he will always be beautiful to me.  However, when I say the same negative things to myself, I accept them and feel terrible.  Why is it easier to love someone else no matter what than it is to love yourself?

I’ve struggled with self-image my entire life.  I believe many people do.  And it’s not an easy thing to change.  But the only way to change negative self-talk is to replace it with positive words and images.

It’s time to accept myself and the choices I’ve made to get myself to where I’m at today.  I believe until I do, I won’t see any real changes.

How are you doing with your goals this week?

Bee at A Spirit of Healing is currently hosting Mindful Monday while Colleen at Silver Threading is away.