Understanding and Acceptance

The events of my life in the past few months have caused me to reflect a lot on what is temporary and what is permanent.  I had a boss once tell me that when I was upset, the best thing to do would be to write it down and put it under my keyboard and then look at it a week later.  He surmised that when I looked at it again, I wouldn’t be upset about it anymore.  I can’t say I liked the guy very much, but in this, he was pretty accurate.

I’m constantly amazed that when something is given enough energy it can become bigger and bigger, but when you set it aside for a while, it becomes something different, smaller perhaps.  It doesn’t necessarily go away, depending on what it is, but when you give something room to breathe, it brings new perspective and new insight.

I’ve also been reflecting on life in general and how tomorrow is not guaranteed.  Trying to live in the moment is difficult, at best, but I believe it’s the best place to be.  It brings a higher appreciation for things when you’re not worried about tomorrow or what happened yesterday.  If only I’d remembered that at dinner tonight…

Sometimes I wonder if this understanding we are all searching for is truly a thing, you know?  Can you ever truly understand another person’s motives for doing something?  But trying to understand seems like it causes even more pain because in the process of trying, you seem to relive everything that happened.  Which, I suppose, is what they call acceptance.   Accepting that you’ll never fully understand.  Accepting that things are okay right now and moving on from here, because no one can go back and change the decisions they made in the past.

In the midst of the chaos that was the last few months, I’ve found a deeper appreciation for life and love and for holding on to those you love and letting them know every single day how much they mean to you.


In response to The Daily Post’s Daily Prompt – Temporary

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English #frapalymo Day 3 – Breathe and Wait

Demons wrestle inside your head
an epic battle to the death…
Breathe through the horror
and wait

Images haunt your waking hours
lurking around every corner…
Breathe through the terror
and wait

Emotions course through you
threatening to sink your reality…
Breathe through the tidal wave
and wait

Demons transform
Images fade
Emotions change
Just breathe
and wait


 

#frapalymo is hosted by @FrauPaulchen and is translated by Bee on her blog Just Fooling Around with Bee.  Today’s prompt is ““the waiting room”.

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Feel free to play along.  Here are Bee’s suggestions:

  1. read the translation of @FrauPaulchen’s prompt
  2.  write your English (German if you can/want to) poem on your blog and tag it with “English #frapalymo.”
  3. use the “English #frapalymo” picture if you want to
  4. set a link to the translated prompt here on Bee’s blog
  5. visit other links posted here and if you want to/can those posted with the hashtag #fapalymo on Twitter
  6. The Bee will post your link to the German #frapalymo and translate for you if you want to. Now go, create and have lots of fun!

Song Lyric Sunday – Breathe (2 AM) by Anna Nalick

Song Lyric Sunday is a week long process for me.  I literally start on Monday and when I hear a song I think, that’s the one!  And sometimes, that is still the one on Saturday afternoon when I write up my post.  But most times it’s like this week and it pretty much changes every single day.

I didn’t have a final direction this morning, but I ended up going to my hairdresser and heard this song while she was cutting Jaxon’s hair.  As soon as I heard it, I knew it was going to be the one.

This song was my jam during a pretty rough time in my life.  Let’s be honest, though, I’ve had a lot of rough times in my life.  Isn’t it amazing how music can help you through those times?

I think the reason I lost this one is because I never bought the CD and it stopped playing on the radio, so I ended up forgetting about it.  But the great thing about music these days, or at least the streaming music services (which I subscribe to), is that you can listen to anything at any time.  I am definitely adding this one to my current playlist.

The lyrics are poignant and today they made me think of how I feel about writing sometimes.   “…And I feel like I’m naked in front of the crowd cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud and I know that you’ll use them, however you want to.”

The other great thing about this song is that sometimes in life you just need to breathe.  You can’t change it.  You can’t fix it and eventually, you realize all you can do is breathe and accept it.

I hope you enjoy this week’s choice for Song Lyric Sunday.  Feel free to read the “rules” below and join in with one of your own.

Breathe (2 AM) by Anna Nalick
Written by Anna Nalick
Lyrics found at AZ Lyrics

2 AM and she calls me ’cause I’m still awake,
“Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don’t love him. Winter just wasn’t my season”
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You’re all here for the very same reason

‘Cause you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable
And life’s like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe… just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
“Just a day” he said down to the flask in his fist,
“Ain’t been sober, since maybe October of last year.”
Here in town you can tell he’s been down for a while,
But, my God, it’s so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I’ll just sing about it.

Cause you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable,
And life’s like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe… just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There’s a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout ’cause you’re just as far in as you’ll ever be out
And these mistakes you’ve made, you’ll just make them again
If you’d only try turning around.

2 AM and I’m still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it’s no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I’m naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you’ll use them, however you want to

But you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable,
And life’s like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
And breathe, just breathe
Woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.


Here are the “rules”:

  • Post the lyrics to a favorite song or a new song you want to share
  • I’ve started including who wrote the song. (I think it’s a good idea to give credit where credit is due)
  • Make sure you also credit the singer/band and provide a link to where you found the lyrics
  • Link to the YouTube video, or pull it into your post so others can listen to the song
  • Ping back to this post or my own Song Lyric Sunday post
  • Read at least one other person’s blog so we can all share new and fantastic music and create amazing new blogging friends in the process

Check out the new badge for Song Lyric Sunday!  The picture was taken by my son Jaxon and it always made me think of Sunday morning.  Feel free to start using it in your posts or add it to your site to show you are participating.  I hope you like it!

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#frapalymo – I Can’t Breathe

I Can’t Breathe

Flailing through darkness
Water surrounds rippling flesh
I can’t breathe

Spinning in circles
Swimming through murky light
Slowly fading
I can’t breathe

A wet cocoon envelopes
Fluttering hearts beating faster
Wrapping around love
Turned cold
I can’t breathe


#frapalymo is hosted by @FrauPaulchen. Bee didn’t translate today, but she did provide us with the video prompt – Breath Tomohide Ilkeya.

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#frapalymo – Who Owns the Air

Who Owns the Air

Have you ever asked
The unanswerable question
Who owns the air

Is it a fictional god
With magical powers
To give and take on a whim

Or is it consciousness
Experiencing a life
Full of spectacular wonders

Is the air conscious
Another form of life
Sharing its essence with all

Breathe deeply
Be forever grateful
To the air… to life… to all


#frapalymo is hosted by @FrauPaulchen and is translated by Bee on her blog The Bee writes. Today’s prompt was “who do you think owns the air?”

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Rediscovering Peace

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This was written for Stream of Consciousness Saturday in which Linda prompted us with the prefix “re”.  This screamed for a poem and how many of those “re” words I could use without being completely ridiculous.  It’s startling what the mind comes up with when given so many different words and without having any solid direction.  Once this started, I realized it was a meditation of sorts, and it made it easier to find where it was going.

I think my subconscious is telling me to settle back into peace, no matter what life is throwing at me.  I hope you enjoy!

Rediscovering Peace

Relapsing into silence
The rejection of sound
Receding waves
Recoiling and churning back to
a reawakening

Rediscovering peaceful serenity
Regarding breathe
in and out
Reaching for unlimited
perception

Re-charting a path
Forward through darkness
Reconsidering moments
Thoughts re-sorted,
rearranged

Reapplied and rewoven
into
solemn clarity
Opening to limitless reception