When books traumatize you instead of entertain you

I thought of this a few weeks ago, but I didn’t have the drive to actually write it up and post it. However, something happened today that made me think of it again. Also, my sister basically forced me to write something yesterday and it has all my writing juices flowing. I guess it’s about time I used my blog for something other than SLS; although, I’m told it’s perfectly fine that my blog is only that.

A few weeks ago, I picked up a book by one of my favorite authors. The synopsis had me intrigued and I couldn’t wait to dive into it. That feeling was very short lived. I had a hard time reading it and it made me anxious. I thought at first that I was simply in one of my moods, but it became increasingly clear that it was the book. It only took about a hundred pages before I finally realized why.

It was the premise and ultimately the bad guy. It brought back a time in my life that still manages to haunt me to this day. I decided to keep reading, but the more I did it, the more anxious I became. I started leaving the book at home, rather than taking it to read during lunch. On Saturday mornings, when I’m normally excited to get a few pages in, I glanced at it and then walked away. It wasn’t until today that I decided to pick up another book. It was like a breath of fresh air. Finally, a book that didn’t make me want to crawl out of my skin.

It does trouble me, though. Part of me wants to read it. I want to face those demons head on and exorcise them. But is that really the way to do it? Do I really want to go through that just for a story? I’ve done it before. I read a book called Sharp Objects, and even though I knew it was traumatizing me, I ended up finishing it. It’s the first book that I ever truly felt like flinging across the room when I was finished. I’m not even happy that I read it, to be honest.

It’s hard for me to leave a book unfinished. I’ve only abandoned a few books in my life and it’s hard to know if I’m making the right decision. Do I keep traumatizing myself in the hopes that some part of that hell will be put to rest? Or do I let it go?

I’m interested to know what you think, since we are a writing community. Do you read books that traumatize you, or do you move on to other things?

I’d love to hear from you!

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Song Lyric Sunday – Is This Love? by James Arthur

I usually know the artists I post on my blog, but in this case, I just ran across this singer last week. I hope you’ll all be proud of me for actually taking to Wikipedia and looking him up. James Arthur is a British singer/songwriter who won the 9th series of the X Factor in 2012. This song is featured on his first self-titled album that was released in 2013.

I have to say that I LOVE his voice and this song just got to me. I could probably listen to it over and over again and not get tired of it. Also, isn’t falling in love exactly like this sometimes? You think you know the old song and dance, but when you find that perfect match, it seems that everything is brand new.

I do hope you enjoy it as much as I did!

I must’ve walked these streets about a million times
I thought I knew them well but maybe I was blind
‘Cause everything’s brand new
Thought I knew my heartbeat but it was out of time
It’s like my lungs are opening for the first time
Ever since I met you
And I’m on my way now
Is this love, really love?
Is this love, really love?
I swear that I was heading down a darker road
You got through my guard when I was in safety mode
Darling you’re such a view
You’re pulling down my walls like you’re my only sun
You’re the one to blame, you hold a smoking gun
So take your aim and shoot
And I’m on my way now
Is this love? Really love?
Is this love? Really love?
I need to know, need to know
‘Cause I’ve never been this close
Is this love, is this love?
Really love, really love?
And all these demons I’m letting go
‘Cause I can see what is beautiful
It finally feels like I’m coming home
Is this love? Really love?
Is this love? Really love?
I need to know, need to know
‘Cause I’ve never been this close
Is this love, is this love?
Really love, really love?
And all these demons I’m letting go
‘Cause I can see what is beautiful
It finally feels like I’m coming home
Songwriters: James Arthur / Steve Robson / Claude Kelly
Is This Love? lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Warner/Chappell Music, Inc

The Song Lyric Sunday theme for this week was street.  Please feel free to click the link, read the rules and post one of your own.

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Song Lyric Sunday Theme for 7/29/18

My hubby and I finally found another show to binge watch, and since neither of us feels very well, it has made for the perfect Saturday afternoon. The other thing that was rather perfect this week was how I came up with the theme. I was watching World of Dance and when one contestant was being scored, a song was playing. I immediately fell in love with the song and was able to come up with the theme and my song at the same time!

Don’t you just love technology these days? I was able to rewind the show and play it while asking Siri to name that tune. It took a couple of times, but she was finally able to tell me the song.

With that, and without any further thoughts from me, let’s just get right to it. Let’s put on our thinking caps on, break out our playlists and get to work!  Our theme for Song Lyric Sunday this week is street.

As always, you can go your own way and post a song that has nothing to do with the prompt.  We’re all here sharing our love of music and lyrics, and most of all, having a great time!

If you would like to suggest a theme, I am open to suggestions.   Please either pop it in the comments or send me an email at helenvahdati@yahoo.com.

Here are the “rules”:

  • Post the lyrics to the song of your choice, whether it fits the theme or not
  • Please try to include the songwriter(s) – it’s a good idea to give credit where credit is due and it’s honestly just a simple Google search
  • Make sure you also credit the singer/band and provide a link to where you found the lyrics
  • Link to the YouTube video, or pull it into your post so others can listen to the song
  • Ping back to this post or my own Song Lyric Sunday post
  • Read at least one other person’s blog so we can all share new and fantastic music and create amazing new blogging friends in the process

Feel free to use the Song Lyric Sunday badge by copying it into your post or add it to your site to show you are participating.

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Song Lyric Sunday – Speak to Me by Amy Lee

I have to admit that I just came across this song today. I always try to do a quick Google search to make sure there are some songs to go along with the theme I pick, and when I looked today’s theme up, I came across this song. It is absolutely beautiful!

I’ve always loved the haunting quality of Amy Lee’s voice. Everything about this song speaks to me and I had to share it with you all today. I do hope you enjoy!

Be still, my love
I will return to you
However far you feel from me
You are not alone
I will always be waiting
And I’ll always be watching you
Speak to me, speak to me, speak to me
I can’t let go
You’re every part of me
The space between is just a dream
You will never be alone
I will always be waiting
And I’ll always be watching
We are one breath apart, my love
And I’ll be holding it in ’till we’re together
Hear me call your name
And just speak, speak to me, speak to me, speak
I feel you rushing all through me
In these walls I still hear your heartbeat
And nothing in this world can hold me back
From waking through to you
We are one breath apart, my love
And I’ll be holding it in ’till we’re together
Hear me call your name
Just believe and speak, speak to me, speak to me, speak to me
Be still, my love
I will return to you
Songwriters: Amy Lee / Michael J Wandmacher
Speak to Me lyrics © BMG Rights Management US, LLC

The Song Lyric Sunday theme for this week was speak.  Please feel free to click the link, read the rules and post one of your own.

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Song Lyric Sunday Theme for 7/22/18

My hubby took us to our favorite Indian restaurant for dinner tonight, which is always a treat. On our way home, he also treated me to yet another Persian saying. I honestly can’t even remember it now, but it did get me to thinking about language. I’m constantly amazed at how different languages are. I’ve always wanted to learn his natural language, but I’ve been too damn lazy to even try. I may just do it, though…

As you know, I don’t just say things in my theme posts without a purpose. Well, usually I don’t. Usually it leads me right into the theme, and this week is no different. So, let’s just get right to it. Let’s put on our thinking caps on, break out our playlists and get to work!  Our theme for Song Lyric Sunday this week is speak.

As always, you can go your own way and post a song that has nothing to do with the prompt.  We’re all here sharing our love of music and lyrics, and most of all, having a great time!

If you would like to suggest a theme, I am open to suggestions.   Please either pop it in the comments or send me an email at helenvahdati@yahoo.com.

Here are the “rules”:

  • Post the lyrics to the song of your choice, whether it fits the theme or not
  • Please try to include the songwriter(s) – it’s a good idea to give credit where credit is due and it’s honestly just a simple Google search
  • Make sure you also credit the singer/band and provide a link to where you found the lyrics
  • Link to the YouTube video, or pull it into your post so others can listen to the song
  • Ping back to this post or my own Song Lyric Sunday post
  • Read at least one other person’s blog so we can all share new and fantastic music and create amazing new blogging friends in the process

Feel free to use the Song Lyric Sunday badge by copying it into your post or add it to your site to show you are participating.

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Song Lyric Sunday – Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson

The day just keeps getting later and later and I’m running out of time to post my own response to the SLS theme. I don’t have any reason for it and I know I’ll beat myself up for it if I don’t, so here I am. First, though, I had to fix the laptop. I thought it would fix itself, but I kept getting this weird starting screen. Thanks to my son for pulling up some stuff on Google. I’ve never been one to shy away from entering weird commands on a computer, so I went for it. I’m just hoping that one day I don’t accidentally do something truly horrifying to the system.

Anyway, I haven’t taken a look at all the entries today, so this one could be a duplicate, but it is speaking to me today. It is also telling the story of why I picked the theme this week. I’m feeling pretty broken, but for some reason, I just keep going. Life is beautiful, but pain is truly starting to take its toll on me. I am trying not to let it break me, but I’m feeling the effects. Hope is all I have; hope that someday I will find the source of the pain and be able to fix it. Or, at least, find a better way to live each day with perhaps less pain.

This song makes me feel hopeful. I’m sure you’ve heard it before, but I hope you enjoy it again today.

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I’d just stare out my window
Dreamin’ of what could be
And if I’d end up happy
I would pray
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray
I could breakaway
I’ll spread my wings, and I’ll learn how to fly
I’ll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I’ll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget all the ones that I love
I’ll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Want to feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jet plane
Faraway
And breakaway
I’ll spread my wings, and I’ll learn how to fly
I’ll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I’ll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won’t forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging ’round revolvin’ doors
Maybe I don’t know where they take me
But gotta keep movin’ on
Movin’ on
Fly away
Breakaway
I’ll spread my wings, and I’ll learn how to fly
Though it’s not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Breakaway
Breakaway
Songwriters: Avril Ramona Lavigne / Bridget Louise Benenate / Matthew Gerrard
Breakaway lyrics © Warner/Chappell Music, Inc, Universal Music Publishing Group, BMG Rights Management

The Song Lyric Sunday theme for this week was break.  Please feel free to click the link, read the rules and post one of your own.

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Song Lyric Sunday Theme for 7/15/18

Can you even believe another week has gone by? I can’t. I keep making plans on the weekend to blog during the week, but then before I even know it, the week is over and I’m here writing my weekly SLS theme post again. I suppose if I just keep this one thing going on my blog, that will be enough until I can figure out what else to do with it. Hopefully you will be patient with me.

I’ve been watching a lot of tennis and soccer (sorry, football) this week. There have been some crazy games played! My favorite person/team didn’t always win, but I’m not unhappy with the men’s tennis finals, how the women’s finals ended up and also the final teams in the World Cup. I was hoping for Belgium and Croatia, but I will settle for one of them playing. I really did feel bad for England, but I truly wanted Croatia to win, so I was excited and shocked because I thought England was for sure going to the final.

Anyway, it did help me come up with the theme this week, so I’m happy about that as well. So, let’s just get right to it. Let’s put on our thinking caps on, break out our playlists and get to work!  Our theme for Song Lyric Sunday this week is break.

As always, you can go your own way and post a song that has nothing to do with the prompt.  We’re all here sharing our love of music and lyrics, and most of all, having a great time!

If you would like to suggest a theme, I am open to suggestions.   Please either pop it in the comments or send me an email at helenvahdati@yahoo.com.

Here are the “rules”:

  • Post the lyrics to the song of your choice, whether it fits the theme or not
  • Please try to include the songwriter(s) – it’s a good idea to give credit where credit is due and it’s honestly just a simple Google search
  • Make sure you also credit the singer/band and provide a link to where you found the lyrics
  • Link to the YouTube video, or pull it into your post so others can listen to the song
  • Ping back to this post or my own Song Lyric Sunday post
  • Read at least one other person’s blog so we can all share new and fantastic music and create amazing new blogging friends in the process

Feel free to use the Song Lyric Sunday badge by copying it into your post or add it to your site to show you are participating.

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