I know I’m probably not the only one out there, especially considering this community is full of artists, but I am a very emotional person. I spent much of my 20s and 30s thinking that was somehow a bad thing, which probably had a lot to do with my relationship at the time. I don’t know what it is, but I seem to attract very logical men. As if being highly emotional wasn’t bad enough, I somehow find myself navigating the ins and outs of an overly logical mind.
I ended up finding it again, but we seem to have more balance than I’ve had in my past relationships. The worst is when we are stressed or upset. He seems to gravitate to logic and I, of course, get really emotional. The end result is a pretty comical journey into communication that isn’t really communication at all because neither one of us can understand the other. The worst is when we each keep trying to get the other one to understand. It just doesn’t happen when we are in our extreme states.
I’ve come to embrace my emotions (or, at least, that’s what I’m telling myself). I still have a hard time when I know I’m in an overly emotional state and I’m just not making any sense. It also doesn’t help that I have a hard time letting things go and I’m a perfectionist. I saw a therapist recently who asked me how I’m managed to survive so long with all these impossible attributes that make navigating my life so difficult.
I didn’t really have an answer for her. Luckily, she gave me some tools that seem to help. Walking away is probably one of the hardest thing for me to do, but it is honestly the only thing that gets me out of that extreme emotional state. You know the saying that whatever is absolutely horrible right now won’t seem so bad a few minutes, hours or days from now? It’s true for me in so many cases.
I’ve gone to bed some nights where everything seemed to be falling apart and woken up the next morning realizing that everything was just fine. It’s that perspective that makes me realize that emotions, while valuable, can also be difficult. They are ever changing and morphing, and sometimes it’s hard to keep up. Luckily I have people in my life who appreciate my strengths and love me despite my weaknesses.
See, no matter how hard I try, I still find myself characterizing “emotional” as weakness. It isn’t, I tell you; it just isn’t!
Love Is In Da Blog is hosted by Bee Halton. Today’s prompt was “emotion”.