I spend a lot of time contemplating things. I could blame it on being a writer, but sometimes I will get lost in thought about what happened at dinner last night or that conversation I had with my son on Sunday. I think I woke up in the middle of the night about that one. I honestly thought maybe I’d expressed my opinion too strongly for my fourteen-year-old, so I texted him the next day to make sure he was okay. Of course, his response was, “I actually kinda enjoyed that conversation, it was fun.”
It’s amazing how the more you contemplate something, the more it changes or becomes something else. I’d convinced myself that he was scarred for life!
I think this is also true for life in general. If you just take a deep breath and stop thinking so much about it and dwelling on it, it will most likely pass and you’ll feel better. That isn’t always the case, but I think it’s a good general rule.
I have gained some weight in the last two years, but for some reason, in the last two months, I was convinced I was going to break the scale if I stood on it. Having received my brand new elliptical last week, I made it a point to check my weight so I could track my progress going forward. It honestly wasn’t as bad as I’d convinced myself it would be. Do I need to lose some pounds? Hell yes! But I definitely don’t need to spend time contemplating it and telling myself over and over again how awful I look. Why are we so mean to ourselves?
The good news is that I can make the change. I’ve exercised two nights in a row now and I feel better than I’ve felt in a long time!