I feel like a broken record here on the blog sometimes. Life seems to take hold of me (and when I say “life”, I guess I probably mean “depression”) and I end up not really posting anything. But I always seem to notice the lack of writing. I have more vivid, intense and not-so-nice dreams, and I find myself “in my head” a whole lot more.
I had some rough news on Thursday, and yesterday I pretty much wallowed in self pity. I was planning to do the same today, but as I was laying in bed this morning, I suddenly realized that I have a choice. I could be pissed off and dread the possibly upcoming surgery (the third one in less than a year), or I could live my life right this moment and enjoy it.
This has nothing to do with the prompt for today, but it’s where my thoughts went and I figured I’d sort of cheat the word in here somehow. But now that I’m thinking about it, unless you’re really talking about guessing, adding the word “guess” into a sentence, especially like I did up there, tells a lot about either the sentence or the person writing it. There’s not a whole lot of power in it, is there? Like somehow you’re already asking for forgiveness for what you’re about to say. Or, you’re double checking with your reader or who knows who to make sure what you’re saying is accurate. Or, you just don’t want to go out on a limb and write something that could possibly be wrong, so you add the “I guess” phrase.
As is typical of SoCS, I’m all over the place this morning, but I’m just going to go with it…
At work yesterday, I had a customer ask if they could add more to their lease, but they weren’t specific about how much more they needed, so I asked him how much more the project was going to be. His response was something like, “I guess it will be around $30K to $50K”. I laughed when I read it. It sounded so strange to me, especially in a business setting. I think it would have come across better if he’d said that the vendor wasn’t sure of the overall cost, but it could be around this much. Instead, he guessed, which was rather odd to me.
I think we all need to be more confident in how we speak and write. Why are we all so afraid to sound unsure? Why are we all so afraid to say “I don’t know”?
It’s an interesting subject, to say the least. But it has nothing to do with how I started this little post. Haha, I guess you could say that I’ve moved past my pity party and have settled into life.
Happy Saturday everyone!
Stream of Consciousness Saturday is hosted by Linda G Hill. Today’s prompt is “guess”.