I had this moment of clarity today and it spurred me into action. The action didn’t last long because life happened today, as it tends to do, but I feel like I have a good direction. I’ve been thinking about writing a lot lately, most likely because it hasn’t really been happening, and I decided that I was just going to do it. I decided to move my desk downstairs and just get to work.
I’d decided to start posting on the blog more and writing short stories again, but I realized that what I really want to do is finish that project that I started oh so many years ago. I realize that I am the only thing standing in the way and all it takes is dedication to the process. Where my desk is or how busy I am at work are only excuses, really.
It’s crazy to me how different I can be when I’m not writing. My dreams are a whole lot more dark and I feel a heaviness all the time that doesn’t seem to be there when I’m writing more often. I’m also realizing that the ideas and the thoughts don’t flow as easily.
I suppose it’s just like any muscle. When you don’t use it, it sort of lays dormant and either finds it’s own way to express itself (dreams) or it just slowly fades. Perhaps I’m being overly dramatic. Maybe it doesn’t fade at all… I’m hoping it’s just like riding a bike and I can just jump into it full steam ahead and I can write my little heart out.
It’s probably going to be crap, but I’d rather write something than always thinking about writing and coming up with a million excuses why I just can’t do it.
I still want to post more here on the ‘ol blog, but perhaps I should spend my energy on my project rather than short stories that could be bigger ideas but I never allow them to go anywhere because I still have my heart set on that other thing that’s just sitting there. So, I’m thinking this is a good first start – stream of conscious writing to get myself warmed up. Many of my posts going forward might be like that, but I’m thinking that’s okay.
Does anyone else get scared thinking about writing a whole big story?? I’ve never done it before so it seems like this huge daunting task… I suppose I’m nothing if not realistic.
Happy Saturday everyone; and Happy Writing!!
Stream of Consciousness Saturday is hosted by Linda G Hill. Today’s prompt is “project”.