I’ve been dealing with a sick child for the last four days, but I only started to get really worried in the last few days. Sometimes it doesn’t matter how much you tell yourself that worry doesn’t help anything or anyone and the only thing you can control is this moment right here. Sometimes, the worst possible scenarios enter your head and all you can do is not latch onto them and let them fester.
We are still trying to find out what’s wrong with my son (his knees have been hurting to the point that he can barely walk), but it got me to thinking today about intuition and listening to your body. I know I’ve talked about intuition before, but this is the part of it where you pay attention to your body and what it’s telling you.
It also made me wonder why doctor’s don’t listen to patients as much as I think they should. We are the ones living it, or watching our loved ones live it. You’d think our opinions and thoughts would have more merit in what happens. I guess that’s a sign you need to find a doctor who will listen to you, but sometimes it isn’t that simple.
This is the second time I’ve had a child with an illness or something happening to their bodies that our pediatrician doesn’t seem to understand. And instead of listening to me (or my children) he seems to only pay attention to his own thoughts on the matter. It’s almost like he latches onto the most viable option and anything else is just not right. I ended up getting a second opinion with my daughter years ago, but I waited far too long. I chose to listen to a doctor whom I knew wasn’t listening to me and taking my thoughts into account. Luckily, I found someone who did listen and we were able to take the necessary steps to get her better.
This time, though, I’m going to bail pretty quickly if the doctor isn’t helpful and if things don’t get better for my son.
Sometimes as parents and even for our own medical needs we just have a feeling. We don’t know what it is and we can’t explain it, but it’s there; and if you don’t advocate for yourself or your child, there are doctors out there who won’t do it either.
The last time I took my son to the doctor, he almost let us leave saying it was just a virus. But I stayed. I told the doctor my son could barely move his arms to pick up a glass of water. I knew there was something wrong, I just didn’t know what. In that case, the doctor ran a Mono test even though he didn’t believe it would come back positive. But it did.
I believe there is something wrong again, but I have no idea what. And if it doesn’t clear up soon, I will push until we find a way to help him feel better. I don’t know if that’s mother’s intuition or just being connected to my son, but his body is saying something and I aim to find out what it is.