As a writer, have you ever stopped to examine your own process? I’m sure you have. I think writers are probably a bit more introspective than many people.
I didn’t know my process – writing was something I picked up some years ago on a whim, but it was never really something I did a lot of. In the past few years, I’ve written quite a bit of flash fiction; however, in the past year or so, my life has prevented me from doing it. (Yeah, I know… that’s an excuse…)
But last week I was inspired by a prompt and a story came to mind. I don’t know if it was as much the story as this overwhelming need I had to write something. You know that feeling? To really dig in and let a story overwhelm you?
I forgot though, how very much it actually does overwhelm me. I had a hard time sleeping, to be honest. I would lay in bed and think about the characters and the story and what would happen if this, and what about that. When I finally sat down and wrote the last part of it, it’s like I transported into the narrative and I was living it for that hour. The images were so clear, I really thought I had watched a movie when I finally walked away from the computer.
I think that’s why it scares me to delve into my WIP/story idea because I know how much it will overwhelm me. I guess that’s why they say writers have a hard time killing their characters. They honestly become like friends, real people you talk to and spend time with. I don’t think I quite understood it, though, until I actually started doing it.
I think there are times when it could become hard to separate fiction from reality. And I’ve also heard that the writer actually starts to act like their main character…
It’s all so fascinating, but scary as hell at the same time.
Writing is hard, folks. It’s rewarding in so many ways, but also terribly difficult. My one hope is that my writing touches others and helps in some way. I’ve always wanted to help people and somehow it makes me feel good to think that someone, somewhere read something I wrote and was a little better for it.
This post is part of Stream of Consciousness Saturday hosted by Linda G. Hill. Today’s prompt was “ha”. Please feel free to click the link and join in the fun.