Part of my journey to healthy living has been learning when to let things go. I made a very specific plan a few weeks ago on the blog and then I ended up getting sick. I’m back into a routine again, but I realized today that I had to let one of those things go.
It’s not easy though.
In many way, I feel like a failure. I sat at work and thought about it for a good twenty minutes trying to figure out the new workout schedule and I finally realized that four days was good enough. I didn’t have to do five days just because I made a plan and wrote it down.
I’m realizing that I need flexibility in my workouts; not only because I have kids who basically view me as a chauffeur when they’re here (that’s not to say that I don’t love doing things for them), but also because I have a job that requires late nights sometimes. And there’s really no way to know when all those things will happen. So, it makes it difficult to have a planned class at a certain time. I thought going to the one on Saturday would work, I but I did that once and I didn’t like the time or the fact that it was at a gym farther away from my house.
Are all those just excuses? Absolutely. But when they continue to be excuses, you start to realize that maybe you need to make a change in order to eliminate the excuse. It’s not like I’m not exercising, because I am. The problem is this class. And the only problem is the set schedule.
The sad part is that I really like the class. I also really like the instructor. I feel like I’m failing her because she was so supportive; but honestly, if I’ve learned anything from this exercise journey, it’s that you have to do what works for you. And sometimes it doesn’t help to bull your way through an issue. Many times that only makes it worse.
Note to self: That is also fabulous life advice…
So, I’m letting my exercise class go, but I’m still planning to run twice a week and lift weights twice a week. I figured that will be good enough for now and I’m hoping it will eliminate the stress I’ve caused myself in trying to keep to the set class schedule.
I just had the thought that I obsess way too much about this stuff sometimes. It should be easier than this, shouldn’t it?
This post is part of Mindful Monday hosted by Colleen at Silver Threading. (I didn’t see a post today, so I am linking to last week’s.)