What is it about crime shows that make me watch them? It used to be, I stayed away from those kinds of things because I knew they could affect me in not very good ways. But all that changed a few years ago and I honestly don’t remember when or why it happened.
I think I’ve always loved a good murder mystery, a who done it story… Now that I’m thinking about it, I grew up watching Murder She Wrote, Perry Mason and Matlock with my family. So, I guess it isn’t that much of a stretch that I am still watching them as an adult.
It’s more likely that the shows themselves have changed. It’s not as lighthearted as it used to be. It’s more gritty, dark and all too real. But then again, I am watching shows like Dexter and Criminal Minds. I didn’t have this probably at all when I was watching the Mentalist. I once did a blog about that series. One of the reasons I loved it was because it didn’t take itself too seriously and even though they covered some pretty gruesome stuff, the overall feel of it was campy.
Last night, our show watching consisted of a two hour Dateline murder mystery followed by a few episodes of Dexter. Dexter and I aren’t necessarily friends, but I keep going back to it because I love the characters and I think it’s interesting that Dexter is always trying to find a way to live with his dark side even while trying to start a family and work a decent job. Aren’t we all trying to do that?
I’ve had to stop watching Dexter several times. This last time, it was almost two weeks that I couldn’t even bring myself to think about it. Am I completely nuts? Why do I do this to myself? Why do I keep watching a show that is traumatizing for me? Last night’s episodes opened a door in my brain and I had “memory” dreams all night. I call them nightmares, even though they weren’t necessarily scary, but I wake up feeling terrible.
I can’t say I’m going to stop watching these shows. I enjoy the writing and how they delve deeper into the human psyche. I just wish they didn’t affect me as deeply as they do sometimes.
What crime/murder mystery shows are you currently watching?
SoCS and Just Jot It January are both hosted by Linda G. Hill. The combined prompt today is to use the word “what” as the first word and a “w” word as the last word of your post. I somehow managed to do both.