Song Lyric Sunday – Turning Page by Sleeping At Last

The first time I heard this song was when I was watching “So You Think You Can Dance.” I cried through the whole thing because not only  was the song beautiful, the dance that was choreographed for it was breathtaking as well. I immediately looked up the artist and the song and have listened to it over and over again.

Sometimes, the saddest part about discovering more about a song is that it was actually used in a movie you thoroughly dislike. (I need to caveat that and say I have never actually seen the movie, but that’s because, well, I don’t think I need a reason. It’s Twilight, after all.)

But, that won’t stop me from loving this song. The lyrics are poetry and the piano is a lovely accompaniment to them and a beautiful voice.

Favorite Line: “With a whisper we will tame the vicious seas, like a feather bringing kingdoms to their knees.”

I’ve always had a soft spot in my heart for singer-songwriters and I hope you enjoy this installment of Song Lyric Sunday as much as I do. Feel free to read the rules below and post your own.

Turning Page by Sleeping At Last
Lyrics found at AZ Lyrics

I’ve waited a hundred years
But I’d wait a million more for you
Nothing prepared me for
What the privilege of being yours would do

If I had only felt the warmth within your touch
If I had only seen how you smile when you blush
Or how you curl your lip when you concentrate enough
Well I would have known
What I was living for all along
What I’ve been living for

Your love is my turning page
Where only the sweetest words remain
Every kiss is a cursive line
Every touch is a redefining phrase

I surrender who I’ve been for who you are
For nothing makes me stronger than your fragile heart
If I had only felt how it feels to be yours
Well I would have known
What I’ve been living for all along
What I’ve been living for

Though we’re tethered to the story we must tell
When I saw you, well I knew we’d tell it well
With a whisper we will tame the vicious seas
Like a feather bringing kingdoms to their knees


I invite everyone who would like to play along so we can share some fantastic music together. Here are the rules for Song Lyric Sunday:

  • Post the lyrics to a favorite song or a new song you want to share
  • Make sure you credit the singer/band and provide a link to where you found the lyrics
  • Link to the YouTube video, or pull it into your post so others can listen to the song
  • Ping back to my post that will go up every Sunday by 9am MST
  • Check out at least one other person’s blog so we can all share new and fantastic music and create amazing new blogging friends in the process

 

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SoCS – Eating Food and Other Random Thoughts

Usually, I have some idea what I’m going to write about when I start the SoCS post, but today, I just don’t. I suppose I can’t really go wrong in talking about food and eating food, but I feel like I did quite a bit of that when I did the A-Z challenge back in April, which wasn’t even planned, by the way. I wasn’t going to do a theme, but I think it helps when doing that particular challenge.

I’ve had a few jobs in the past couple of years and the one thing that bothers me, but probably shouldn’t, are the places you can find to eat around your workplace. I don’t think you realize how used to those places you become until you no longer work there and have other, not as great choices around the new job.

I went from a pretty eclectic neighborhood where I had a ton of really good choices within walking distance to a mall. It was pretty terrible. Most days, I chose to take food from home since the choices were pretty dismal. The one place I found that I loved, though, was a pizza place (of course). They make personal pizza’s in like five minutes that are really good, considering most of those types of pizza places are disgusting. I got really used to having pizza once a week and it was the place I went to on my last day of work over there.

Luckily for me, I found the exact same pizza place about five minutes from my new job. It’s pretty sad (or maybe it’s not) that food makes me this happy. Or maybe I should say pizza makes me this happy.

I also have some new, rather delicious food choices around my new job, which is good because I find myself with a full hour lunch now that I have no idea what to do with.

Going to lunch alone can be scary, but lately I am finding it is peaceful. I don’t have to deal with someone else’s drama or with what someone else wants to eat. I just do what I want and spend the whole time either reading or playing on my phone. Perhaps this is anti-social of me, but after my last job and the drama I left, I don’t think anyone can blame me.

Eating food is a necessity, but it doesn’t have to be a chore. I always say that life is too short to worry about it, but I worry about it just as much as the next person. Did I eat too much? Have I had too much sugar today? Did I have any vegetables or fruit to balance out the other shit in my diet that is terrible? I love food, but I over-think the hell out of it. I wish it wasn’t so much of a love-hate relationship… like why does food have to add pounds? Should that even matter?

Yeah, no answers here. All I can say is that I love it and I try to enjoy it while not beating myself up too much for eating too much of the stuff that has no nutritional value even though it can be the most delicious thing in front of me.


This rather random post about eating food is brought to you by Stream of Consciousness Saturday, hosted by Linda G. Hill. “Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is: “-eat.”  Use the word “eat” or add letters to it to make a different word. Don’t cheat!”

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Mondays Finish the Story – The Mango Tree Prison

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She lived in a mango tree, but not by choice. Convicted of another’s crime, Avery was banished to the tallest tree on the highest ledge overlooking everything she couldn’t have.

But it wasn’t all bad.

Bright green leaves rustled around her and bluebirds visited every day. She listened to their warbling as she wove spells into the ether. She could no longer practice her craft for the benefit of humankind, but watching the sparks fly from her fingertips delighted her beyond words.

Gazing through the hole in the tree that served as her window, Avery watched Tawny fly up and land on the branch next to her, feathers shivering in her excitement.

“What news, little dove?”

“Milady,” Tawny sang breathlessly. “I finally found the key!”

Avery’s cry of delight echoed across the sky.

“Tawny, that’s the best news I’ve heard in ages!”

Freedom was finally within her grasp.


Mondays Finish the Story is a unique flash fiction challenge where we provide you with a new photo each week, and the first sentence of a story. Your challenge is to finish the story using 100-150 words, not including the sentence provided. Click on the froggy link to read other stories or upload your own.

My story this week is coming in at 148 words. I can’t believe I’ve been absent for a month! I have plenty of reasons and/or excuses, but they don’t really matter. I’m just happy to be writing again, even if it is only a few words. I hope you enjoy.

 

Song Lyric Sunday – Stay by Mayday Parade

As promised, here is the second song that made me cry last week. I hope you have some Kleenex handy…

I love this song, but it didn’t ever make me cry until I saw the video. I suppose I never considered that it could go a bit deeper and when someone says “please stay” they aren’t just talking about staying in a relationship. It could be they are saying please don’t die, which brings it to a whole new level.

I love Mayday Parade. It has always been one of those bands, though, that I don’t really think about until they start playing on my iPod when I’m running or when they happen to play during a long shuffle of my favorite tunes. And I have a hard time picking just one song that I like. I honestly like every song on the one album I have.

Favorite line: “And I’d be blessed by the light of your company slowly lifting me to somewhere new.”

I hope you enjoy this installment of Song Lyric Sunday. Feel free to read the rules below and post your own.

Stay by Mayday Parade
Lyrics found at AZLyrics

I need some time just deliver the things that I need for now
Everything that I feel’s like a warm deep calm casting over me
And it’s taking me to somewhere new

If you believe that everything’s alright
You won’t be all alone tonight
And I’d be blessed by the light of your company,
Slowly lifting me to somewhere new

Oh can you tell, I haven’t slept very well
Since the last time that we spoke, you said
“Please understand if I see you again don’t even say hello.”

Please

What a night it is, when you live like this
And you’re coming up beneath the clouds,
Don’t let me down
All the love’s still there I just don’t know what to do with it now
You know, I still can’t believe we both did some things
I don’t even wanna think about
Just say you love me and I’ll say “I’m sorry,
I don’t want anybody else to feel this way”
No, no, no

Oh can you tell, I haven’t slept very well
Since the last time that we spoke, I said
“Please understand I’ve been drinking again, and all I do is hope”

Please… stay
Please stay

I’ll admit I was wrong about everything
Cause I’m high and I don’t wanna come down
All the fun that we had on your mothers couch,
I don’t even wanna think about

I’m not strong enough for the both of us
What was I supposed to do
You know I love you
Whoa-oh

Please just stay
Stay


I invite everyone who would like to play along so we can share some fantastic music together. Here are the rules for Song Lyric Sunday:

  • Post the lyrics to a favorite song or a new song you want to share
  • Make sure you credit the singer/band and provide a link to where you found the lyrics
  • Link to the YouTube video, or pull it into your post so others can listen to the song
  • Ping back to my post that will go up every Sunday by 9am MST
  • Check out at least one other person’s blog so we can all share new and fantastic music and create amazing new blogging friends in the process

 

SoCS – Mapping a Route

On our way home from a long drive, my boyfriend and I were having a discussion about Siri. Does anyone else find it strange that we talk about her like she’s a real person? Maybe it isn’t so much strange as it is new. Or, no, maybe it is just strange. Anyway, he was saying something about how she can track the quickest route home depending on traffic and lights and other variables. So, even though we obviously know the way home, we decided to ask her to help us.

“Siri, take me home,” he said and she mapped out a route.

When he took the first turn off the highway, he was worried. It was a road he had never been on and, granted, it’s one of those scarier roads to drive at night. It’s getting more use now that more houses have gone up along the west side of the valley, but for a long time, it was used more for big trucks and high school kids looking to get a thrill driving fast on a long stretch of road.

We made it home in one piece, but we laughed about how Siri knows things we don’t and how she could have perhaps gotten us killed. Did I mention that I have jealousy moments with Siri? I could have told him to take that road… I could have gotten us home… Siri isn’t all that… Yeah, it’s pretty pathetic.

(My mind was going in a direction when I first started, but now it’s taking me somewhere else.)

I know there are many people who have a clear plan for their life – a route mapped out – and some of them stick to it pretty clearly and others are taken off course, either by their own decisions or other things that happen that force them to veer off course. I’m not sure I ever really had a plan for my life. At one point in high school I wanted to be a lawyer. Yeah, I’m so happy I didn’t stick with that one.

I feel at times that I haven’t had any real direction and I’ve had to adapt to circumstances and change just to survive. And it got me to thinking today that as much as a plan is good, life isn’t about a destination. It’s almost certainly about the journey and I feel that there are so many things I missed because I was more focused on the end result.

When I moved in with my boyfriend, the goal was to move into a bigger house within a year. That’s still the plan today, but I was so focused on not being here, that I didn’t even consider this my home. I finally realized that only a few months ago and made a few changes so we could all be a bit more comfortable, even though the place is tiny for how many adult bodies we are trying to fit into it.

And you know what? I am so much happier. We’ll eventually find a bigger place. But I’m not going to be unhappy in the interim, simply because I’m too focused on moving out that I can’t appreciate what we have.

I suppose what all this means is that it’s okay to take a different route, even though it might be scary. It’s okay to veer off course, especially if the end result is the same. Because if we miss out on something because we were too focused on the end result, then what was it all for? I can tell you that even if you find that perfect job or the perfect house or exactly what you thought you wanted, you will soon be looking for that next best thing.

Enjoy the journey. Life is too short to miss out on so much.


Stream of Consciousness Saturday is hosted by Linda G. Hill. “Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is: “route/root.”  Use one, use both, use them as they are, or add something to them. Have fun!

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Song Lyric Sunday – Pass Slowly by Seether

I’m not a huge video person. I didn’t really plan it that way. I just never even think to pull up a video to a song. Probably because YouTube drives me crazy. I wish it was easier to find the “official” video to songs, but you usually have to wade through a bunch of posts before locating it; or you never actually do, which probably means the band didn’t post one.

Anyway, my point is, I had two different songs picked out for today and I was going to sit down and pick one by watching the video. I honestly knew the songs were on the slow side and the lyrics were poignant, but watching the videos had me sobbing like a baby and I’m still torn about which one to post. I suppose that means that you’ll be crying with me for two weeks in a row because the other one is going up next Sunday.

So, rolling the dice, you’re getting Pass Slowly by Seether. Yet another band I have seen with Adelle live in concert, although I have to say that I didn’t much enjoy them live. It didn’t make me like them any less, though. I still love their music and this song gets me every time, even without the video.

I honestly thought of a lover and how if you don’t see them very often, you want them to pass slowly when they are here so you can eek out every ounce of happiness that is possible before they leave again.

I love all the lyrics to this song, so nothing to point out as a favorite line.

I hope you brought some Kleenex for this installment of Song Lyric Sunday. As always, feel free to read the rules below and post your own. Everyone is welcome here.

Pass Slowly by Seether
Lyrics found at AZ Lyrics

I think it’s time for a change
Cause things feel out of touch
And I watch you walk away, again

Well this feels like too much
(Can you take it away?)
And things won’t go my way
Now I’ll have to fade away, my friend

So pass slowly
And carry me down
And render me lonely
When you’re not around

I need to shake off this pain
But courage takes too much
So I have to walk away, again

Oh God I miss your touch
(Can you take it away?)
The way that you keep me safe
I won’t let you fade away, my friend

So pass slowly
And carry me down
Remember me only
When you’re not around

Oh yea, can’t you stay awhile longer?
Oh yea, won’t you stay?
God please stay
And pass slowly
(It’s time for a change)
And whittle me down
(Cause things feel out of touch)
And render me lonely
(I’ll watch you walk away, again)
When you’re not around

So pass slowly
(This feels like too much)
And let me down easy
(And things won’t go my way)
Render me lonely
(I’ll have to fade away, my friend)
When you’re not around


I invite everyone who would like to play along so we can share some fantastic music together. Here are the rules for Song Lyric Sunday:

  • Post the lyrics to a favorite song or a new song you want to share
  • Make sure you credit the singer/band and provide a link to where you found the lyrics
  • Link to the YouTube video, or pull it into your post so others can listen to the song
  • Ping back to my post that will go up every Sunday by 9am MST
  • Check out at least one other person’s blog so we can all share new and fantastic music and create amazing new blogging friends in the process

 

SoCS – Contemplating Tempests

I’ve been contemplating relationships a lot lately. And I really mean any kind of relationship – parents, siblings, lovers, coworkers…

I grew up with a lot of trauma and found myself visiting therapists at a pretty young age. I’m not against therapy. I think it can be good, but only if you find that person you can trust and who truly has your interest at heart and not their own or their paycheck. I’ve had amazing therapists and then I’ve had therapists who took advantage and caused more damage than what I originally went to them for.

I mention therapy because in therapy you are taught to talk. To get it out. To explore.

Sometimes I think this isn’t completely correct or entirely necessary because when it’s all said and done, the only person you can change or control is yourself. You can rant about someone else’s behavior. You can talk about how much they hurt you and how you wish they had done things differently. But really, it just feels like stirring the pot. Stirring up anger and, I don’t know, a tempest that can blow and scream, but really, what we really need to do is ride the storm?

I’m not sure that works either.

I suppose what I’m saying is that when you go into a “talk-out session” expecting the other person to agree with you or automatically see your side and lay down an apology, you will lose every time.

I sat in a room with a co-worker this week and instead of taking accountability for things we all knew she was doing, including her, she asked us to show her proof. “Can you prove that I did those things?” She also said, “Have you seen it with your own eyes?” Well, yeah, I had, but really all she was doing was deflecting her own shit back to me and instead of answering I said, “Whatever game this is, I don’t want to play.”

The sad fact is that I watched her clean her desk out yesterday and walk out of the building with HR (all on my last day of work, lucky for me). Do I want someone to get fired? No. Do I feel bad for stirring that particular tempest? I do, but I also know that there are times when something needs to be said. Do I think the therapy session needed to happen, where we all talk “openly” about what was going on? No. Because it didn’t do anyone any good. She didn’t apologize and we all felt worse afterwards.

Why, you ask, am I using my blog as a sounding board for all this? I don’t know and I apologize because this is supposed to be light-hearted and fun. I suppose it just needed to come out.

The one thing therapy taught me was to talk things out. The one thing I feel I’m lacking is the ability to let it go. To realize that not everyone thinks the way I do. Not everyone is going to see something the same way I do and what good does it do to hash things back and forth, the other person set in their view and me in mine. I honestly think it just raises tempers and causes more hurt and anger and pain.

But letting go is the hardest thing to do. Especially when the person involved is someone you love; someone you want to see things your way; someone you want to understand you.

I’ve come to realize that it isn’t always necessary. What I need to ask is how I can do things differently next time. Tell the other person how I feel then walk away and continue on with life.

So, this is me walking away.

Everything is right in my world and there is a lovely day going on outside that I can see shining on the very green plant that I have managed to water just enough that it is still alive, and if I didn’t know better, thriving.


Stream of Consciousness Saturday is hosted by Linda G. Hill. Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is: “temp.”  Use a word with “temp” anywhere in it – beginning, middle or end – or use it as a word all on its own. Enjoy!

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