Sometimes having the prompt be this wide open is wonderful, but then there’s other times where you make the mistake of looking up words ending with “ay” and there are so many that you become overwhelmed and don’t even know where to start. (Just in case you’re wondering, that totally happened to me just now…)
So, I’m going to keep it simple and settle on a theme for this post that I’ve been pondering all week – more of a kick in the butt to myself than an actual interesting article to inspire others. Who knows, maybe my words will inspire others, but honestly, this is really to myself.
I started a new job in February and within a week I was asked to do something completely different than what I was hired for. I knew pretty quickly that it wasn’t something I wanted to do and add to that the stress of what I’ve been asked to do, I’ve pretty much been a different person for the last six months and it is only getting steadily worse. If looking for a job was a simple thing, believe me, I would have been pounding the pavement; although, it’s not like I haven’t looked. I’ve had a few interviews in the past six months, but finding a job isn’t as easy for me as it used to be.
I feel more and more that I’m sinking into this stress thing; I play less, I smile less and it is only compounded by the addition of a headache. In the last three weeks, I’ve had a headache every day except for three. (I am working with a doctor and I’m on medication, but I wholly believe it is stress-related.)
So, what is all this whining about, you ask? Merely just a reminder to myself that no matter how hard I believe it might be, I really need to do the things I love. I need to blog more, which means writing more; I need to start running again; I need to enjoy the times when I’m not at work rather than coming home and vegetating because I’m so exhausted.
I don’t think I can rely on finding another job and having the stress just disappear. I honestly need to make the changes that will hopefully bring about a positive result in my work life.
So, my plan for today is to go on a long drive with the boyfriend, play my heart out with his fabulous company, and remember what it is to be me again. This won’t be easy. Don’t think I haven’t given myself this pep-talk millions times in the last six months. I have. One of these days, I’m hoping it will be the kick in the butt that I need to get going.
I hope you all have a fabulous Saturday and that you find time to play, whatever that might mean for you.
Stream of Consciousness Saturday is hosted by Linda G. Hill. Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is: “-ay.” Find a word ending in “ay” and use it as the theme/subject of your post. Play with it, I say! (I just want to say that I’m in love with the new SoCS badge and I like to think I’m the one who tipped it to this one. I think I voted right before it closed the other night, just saying…)