A Present for Staying Present

As you all know, I’ve been busy looking for another job as my company is moving our corporate office to Michigan, and as anyone who has ever looked for a job knows, the process is pretty horrible. It’s all putting on a show and selling yourself to people who may or may not be interested in what you have to offer; but first things first. They have to look at words on a piece of paper first and if that interests them, then you might get a call. I mentioned in my last post about looking for a job that I had applied at a few places but for the most part I hadn’t really jumped into the process yet.

Despite the small steps, I’ve had a few interviews and even made it to the point where I was one of two and they picked the other person. I can tell you, it’s hard to stay present. It’s hard not to wonder what you did wrong, how you could have said this or that differently in order to get a yes instead of a no. It’s hard to not wonder what will happen if you don’t have a new position when the old one is finished and how that might play out.

But I can tell you that through every step of this process, every time I have let it go and buried myself in the present moment, things have happened all on their own. Like when I applied for three positions on a random Saturday and ended up getting so upset I didn’t apply for anything else and just told myself I would let my recruiter do all the hard work until January, then I’d start the application and resume submission process for real. I pretty much let it go and decided to wait until after the holidays to worry about it.

I kid you not, about two days later I was sitting at lunch and I got a call from one of those jobs I applied for about three weeks before… and who the hell waits three weeks to call a prospective employee anyways? Apparently, they do, because they did and they brought me in for an interview. It was the kind of interview where I was so excited when I left, I had to do that thing where you tell yourself not to get too excited and was it really “all that” just to keep yourself grounded.

I didn’t hear anything for the rest of the week but that Friday they contacted my references. Now, it’s a lot harder to stay present when you’re dealing with exciting what-ifs, but these people made it almost impossible to stay on that what-if high. The next week was Thanksgiving week and I didn’t hear anything, which, wasn’t a bad thing, I told myself. It was a short week and I figured I would hear from them on Monday.

I didn’t.

But Tuesday, they called me back for a second interview and it was even better than the first. I left the second almost positive I had the position, but had to keep telling myself it wasn’t a sure thing and there was no way to really know.

They called me later that day and wanted me to come back for a final interview but then they dropped a bombshell. They were below my price range. Ugh! I cried all the way home. How could this happen and why? I finally find what I thought was a “perfect” situation, if there is such a thing, and then this happens. I talked to my boyfriend and my sister and decided to counter them. I have never done that before and I was freaked out. Basically, I was going to ask a company to wait for me to finish out my position, which will be January 31st.

I freaked and stressed about it, but finally the next morning, I decided that it was okay. If it was meant to be, it would, but if not, I still had another month and a half to find something else that could be my new perfect. I entered the present moment and did my work until it was time to meet with them.

I still can’t believe what happened. It’s like Christmas came early and I received the best present, the one I needed the most this year. I have a job with a company that is so excited about me that they are willing to wait for me to finish my current position.

Things like this just don’t happen to me. But I am so grateful for it.

So, there you have it. My crazy journey into looking for and finding a job. And I can tell you it is better to stay in the present moment, but I can also tell you it is more difficult than you can possibly imagine.

This was written for Stream of Consciousness Saturday where the prompt was to write about “present”.



12 thoughts on “A Present for Staying Present

    • Thank you so much, Sandi. It was scary as hell, but I had a really good feeling about this one. I also decided that whatever happened was okay and it just happened to work out. 😉


  1. This is very true. Waiting and living in the present is something I’m really trying to practice now. It can be very hard, especially since I think it has a lot to do with patience as well 🙂 Congrats on your new position!


    • Absolutely, and patience isn’t something I’m really known for. 😀

      Thank you so much! I’m excited for the road ahead, but trying to stay in this moment so I don’t miss out on anything. 😉

      Liked by 1 person

  2. I’m grinning for you! I think you found the perfect space of daring and acceptance that, if it didn’t work out, something else would, and that could be the new perfect…

    Perfect really is a state of mind, more than anything else.

    May you find your last weeks at your present job deeply fulfilling, and may you move on to the future with joy and ease. =)

    Liked by 1 person

    • Thank you, Shan. It was a long time coming, but I feel like I did find that space. I’m excited for what’s ahead. It isn’t very often you find such a clear cut ending and beginning of something else in life. 😉


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.