As you all know, I’ve been busy looking for another job as my company is moving our corporate office to Michigan, and as anyone who has ever looked for a job knows, the process is pretty horrible. It’s all putting on a show and selling yourself to people who may or may not be interested in what you have to offer; but first things first. They have to look at words on a piece of paper first and if that interests them, then you might get a call. I mentioned in my last post about looking for a job that I had applied at a few places but for the most part I hadn’t really jumped into the process yet.
Despite the small steps, I’ve had a few interviews and even made it to the point where I was one of two and they picked the other person. I can tell you, it’s hard to stay present. It’s hard not to wonder what you did wrong, how you could have said this or that differently in order to get a yes instead of a no. It’s hard to not wonder what will happen if you don’t have a new position when the old one is finished and how that might play out.
But I can tell you that through every step of this process, every time I have let it go and buried myself in the present moment, things have happened all on their own. Like when I applied for three positions on a random Saturday and ended up getting so upset I didn’t apply for anything else and just told myself I would let my recruiter do all the hard work until January, then I’d start the application and resume submission process for real. I pretty much let it go and decided to wait until after the holidays to worry about it.
I kid you not, about two days later I was sitting at lunch and I got a call from one of those jobs I applied for about three weeks before… and who the hell waits three weeks to call a prospective employee anyways? Apparently, they do, because they did and they brought me in for an interview. It was the kind of interview where I was so excited when I left, I had to do that thing where you tell yourself not to get too excited and was it really “all that” just to keep yourself grounded.
I didn’t hear anything for the rest of the week but that Friday they contacted my references. Now, it’s a lot harder to stay present when you’re dealing with exciting what-ifs, but these people made it almost impossible to stay on that what-if high. The next week was Thanksgiving week and I didn’t hear anything, which, wasn’t a bad thing, I told myself. It was a short week and I figured I would hear from them on Monday.
But Tuesday, they called me back for a second interview and it was even better than the first. I left the second almost positive I had the position, but had to keep telling myself it wasn’t a sure thing and there was no way to really know.
They called me later that day and wanted me to come back for a final interview but then they dropped a bombshell. They were below my price range. Ugh! I cried all the way home. How could this happen and why? I finally find what I thought was a “perfect” situation, if there is such a thing, and then this happens. I talked to my boyfriend and my sister and decided to counter them. I have never done that before and I was freaked out. Basically, I was going to ask a company to wait for me to finish out my position, which will be January 31st.
I freaked and stressed about it, but finally the next morning, I decided that it was okay. If it was meant to be, it would, but if not, I still had another month and a half to find something else that could be my new perfect. I entered the present moment and did my work until it was time to meet with them.
I still can’t believe what happened. It’s like Christmas came early and I received the best present, the one I needed the most this year. I have a job with a company that is so excited about me that they are willing to wait for me to finish my current position.
Things like this just don’t happen to me. But I am so grateful for it.
So, there you have it. My crazy journey into looking for and finding a job. And I can tell you it is better to stay in the present moment, but I can also tell you it is more difficult than you can possibly imagine.
This was written for Stream of Consciousness Saturday where the prompt was to write about “present”.